“You have to find something that you love enough to be able to take risks, jump over the hurdles and break through the brick walls that are always going to be placed in front of you. If you don’t have that kind of feeling for what it is you’re doing, you’ll stop at the first giant hurdle.” – George Lucas
This is a great quote and so apt for how I am feeling now that i am just 8 weeks from my exhibition opening. The Self doubt hasn't been a strong factor in this exhibition lead up but definitely now!
First question racing through my mind is... Oh god I only have 8 weeks left! What if I cant finish them to a high enough standard?
Are people going to buy my work?
What if .... and so On
Pursuing a career doing what you love requires courage, especially when it is a career in the arts. As any artist will tell you, this type of work is unconventional, and challenging. It can often be isolating and you are constantly looking for approval. As you develop your skills more, become more refined and better at what you do, the compliments come less and less, because its expected of you.
Artists typically don’t have to clock in at a certain time, he or she must be self-motivating. An artist must also learn to manage anxiety around sporadic income, and will constantly face evaluation and criticism of their work, which to most Artists is a criticism of themselves.
Artists must persevere, even when they are plagued by periods of creative block, self-doubt or fear of failure. Creative individuals may also lack support from friends and family who believe their work is more a hobby then a “real job.”
And then of course the most common problem is the constant Negative Self talk and self criticism
You could talk yourself into interpreting things in black and white, all or nothing, success or failure, not in between, its got to be perfect for others or else you are not good enough. When you do get a compliment you could completely put your work down quite unknowingly at times saying that it wasn't your best work and talk yourself down... selling art is about Promotion of self! so stop that talk consciously stop yourself right there.
I believe the first thing you have to do is be aware of these patterns. Read positive articles that lift you up and help you get back on track, write all your talk down and then replace it with positive talk. I know that writing this even helps me, i.e Supporting other artists, or people in general helps me process my doubt.
At the end of the day and I say it to others time and time again....
Success is really just measured on your perceptions. If you think it will be a success or think of yourself as a success then you are!
I found the definition of success in the wikipedia dictionary ...
Success may mean, but is not limited to:
a level of social status
achievement of an objective/goal
the opposite of failure
the succession of successfully executed tasks and successes
So realistically looking at those definitions, if I measure my success on Finishing my solo exhibition to a high standard then I cannot fail. From here I am going to go create so until next time.... xxx Thanks for reading!