“You have to find something that you love enough to be able to take risks, jump over the hurdles and break through the brick walls that are always going to be placed in front of you. If you don’t have that kind of feeling for what it is you’re doing, you’ll stop at the first giant hurdle.” – George Lucas
This is a great quote and so apt for how I am feeling now that i am just 8 weeks from my exhibition opening. The Self doubt hasn't been a strong factor in this exhibition lead up but definitely now!
First question racing through my mind is... Oh god I only have 8 weeks left! What if I cant finish them to a high enough standard?
Are people going to buy my work?
What if .... and so On
Pursuing a career doing what you love requires courage, especially when it is a career in the arts. As any artist will tell you, this type of work is unconventional, and challenging. It can often be isolating and you are constantly looking for approval. As you develop your skills more, become more refined and better at what you do, the compliments come less and less, because its expected of you.
Artists typically don’t have to clock in at a certain time, he or she must be self-motivating. An artist must also learn to manage anxiety around sporadic income, and will constantly face evaluation and criticism of their work, which to most Artists is a criticism of themselves.
Artists must persevere, even when they are plagued by periods of creative block, self-doubt or fear of failure. Creative individuals may also lack support from friends and family who believe their work is more a hobby then a “real job.”
And then of course the most common problem is the constant Negative Self talk and self criticism
You could talk yourself into interpreting things in black and white, all or nothing, success or failure, not in between, its got to be perfect for others or else you are not good enough. When you do get a compliment you could completely put your work down quite unknowingly at times saying that it wasn't your best work and talk yourself down... selling art is about Promotion of self! so stop that talk consciously stop yourself right there.
I believe the first thing you have to do is be aware of these patterns. Read positive articles that lift you up and help you get back on track, write all your talk down and then replace it with positive talk. I know that writing this even helps me, i.e Supporting other artists, or people in general helps me process my doubt.
At the end of the day and I say it to others time and time again....
Success is really just measured on your perceptions. If you think it will be a success or think of yourself as a success then you are!
I found the definition of success in the wikipedia dictionary ...
Success may mean, but is not limited to:
a level of social status
achievement of an objective/goal
the opposite of failure
the succession of successfully executed tasks and successes
So realistically looking at those definitions, if I measure my success on Finishing my solo exhibition to a high standard then I cannot fail. From here I am going to go create so until next time.... xxx Thanks for reading!
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Monday, May 17, 2010
First SNEAKY PEAKY at one of my half finished works for the exhibition!
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Well last night I woke in a cold sweat, The exhibition is only 2 and a half months away and I havent finished any painting!
I have all this creative rhythm flowing at the moment that all I want to do is create more and more, but... Now I have a ton of unfinished work! eeekkk
It truelly is a journey, and I think that fear of not completing the paintings to a high standard like the one painting before is a real factor and example of how my natural reaction is to self sabotage.
Near with me here I am going to ramble a little but there is a point I promise!!!
I could sit and say to myself ... "Oh god, my work is not as awesome as the painting I have created over the last days, oh well I will create more in the same range ... More paintings that are safe...." - Go with what I know ...
Or I can look at it like " Well I really did well with this last painting, I am really happy with it, I am afraid of not being able to create a high quality work straight after it but I am going to TRUST that what ideas I had that had originally shaped each unfinished work was part of a bigger vision that I am just not seeing right now."
This is a huge breakthrough on a personal level for me, I mean we can relate this exact struggle with any given situation in life.
You may not know why things are happening for you You may not understand "the Bigger picture" But you know that everything happens for a reason and their really is a result in sight, it may not be on your time or in the way you had forseen it, but In the end, if you TRUST and LISTEN to yourself then you will know that it was all meant to be!
Oh god I think I am rambling again ha ha oh well I am sure someone will get what I am saying!
Anyway enough blogging off to paint!!!!!
Love Rach xx
Friday, May 14, 2010
Through the Valley
By Rachael Inch
It occurred to me during this process of preparation for my first solo, that many times I have mentioned what I love painting but never where my inspiration comes from.
It comes from everything. Everything around me and in my world, feelings, experiences beautiful moments, forms of the land or the way that clouds form and pattern into magnificent stories. It’s the way we move or transfer energy it’s in everything I see. I put rhythm into my work whether it’s through my paintings or through moving words and vibrations when I am painting.
Ok I am aware that there are a lot of people that will not have a clue what I am talking about, and that’s ok..
What people see is constrained by what they believe they can see everything that is not conveyed to consciousness by eye and ear is dismissed from the modern view of the world.
So I see things through a view that others don’t, and to bridge that “gap” and share the pure beauty in this world that I see around me, I paint and ramble!
I hope that makes sense to you as you are reading this because I know writing it is extremely difficult.. Why? Because I am putting myself out there to potentially be considered a “nutcase” lol (its not the first time!)
Anyway, back to my inspiration for painting, I believe everything has positive and negative. I just choose to see the positive, the brighter side of things around us, whether it be a lock of hair falling into place perfectly, a form in the ground that weaves so softly and gently, or the way someone speaks and their energy that makes others relaxed and happy. Those are the things and the memories that I want to capture for eternity.